jealousy

I don't have the ability to be looked at like this.
I was so jealous towards her,
there seems to be complexities inside the way you look at her.
I am just so small and unimportant in that ocassion, that atmosphere.
seems useless and powerless, no more than a passer-by or a maid.
It's a sour and bitter taste,
I want to get rid of it so much, but I failed.
It's the similar bad feeling I have had in the past.
...actually you didn't know, it's the reason why I lost my appetite.